I've Never Been In Love Before

It was around September in the year 1952 when I saw my first play. "Guys And Dolls" which starred Robert Alder as Sky Masterson who listens to Sister Sarah Day sing the way she feels about falling in love. I was on a date with a very pretty girl named Dolores Hertel and I could feel the vibes going through me because I was falling in love. But as fate had it she was going out with a sailor who was at sea and really had no time for me.

However a few years later I met a very pretty Latina, Puerto Ricana named Sarita and soon I was her Sky and she was Sister Sarah and we sang it together in spirit as we fell madly in love and it lasted 50 years. Think of it madly in love in sickness and health in sexiness and not so sexy moments. We had it all and that song, that duet, became replaced because Sarita was my last love between a guy and a girl and it was replaced by "When I Fall In Love" which says it'll be forever and it is forever,  through all eternity as far as I am concerned.

By the way Robert Alder is the father of Alan Alder. AND The lyrics of that song follows in case you're interested.

When I fall in love

it will be forever
or I'll never fall in love.

In a restless world
like this is
love is ended before its begun
and too many moonlight kisses
seem to cool in the warmth of the sun.

When I give my heart
it will be completely
or I'll never give my heart (oo let me give my heart)

Strength Through Weakness Gives Wisdom

He realized that advanced age had drained many of the strengths of youth. But that is not all bad. Through the weakness of being old he gained the strength that youth denied him.

Example of the above is the very fact that as a young man he could use his physical strength to defend but usually ended up hurting the offender. Mental strength could intimidate badly leaving scars that were hard to heal. In order to win, to appear strong, others were hurt badly.

The advantage of growing older is one doesn't have to win at all costs, one can heal, take some blows letting others find the peace they need so desperately in their lives.

Those that equate losing stamina, sight and looks with doddering demented people should be taken with a grain of salt not with hurtful comments that point out that they might be too fat, self indulgent, not really as perfect as they think they are.

The failed relationships that leave people alone as a result of a life of desertion leaving a hole in their life which they may deny but they can never fill.

The parents who lose contact with their children except when they give money or shelter, they do not have to be reminded that the problems they have are larger than life and dangerous.

Living long one can learn that one doesn't have to defend ones self but one has a duty to try and heal. However, if all else fails than wisdom says to leave peacefully and pray for them always sending good karma their way.

The Mueller Report/America Betrayed

The findings are clear. Russia invaded us trying to influence our 2016 Presidential election so that Trump would win and they are still doing what they can to keep it so.

The investigation was always trying to be obstructed by Trump and of that it sure seems he is as guilty as sin especially since The Special Counsel could NOT exonerate him of any wrongdoings.  Trump refused to appear for an interview and was permitted written responses to selected questions and the report indicates he lied and was evasive in his written responses, not all of them but enough so as to make his responses not helpful to the investigation.AND if all this isn't enough the DoJ's Southern District of NY  lists Trump as an unindicted coconspiritor in their campaign finance case.

All this means that Trump is skating on thin ice of the law and could actually be a law breaker. Let that sink in, the President of this great county the United States of America, may actually be a law breaker, a crook, potentially a criminal. A trial could bring a final conclusion to all this except there is a  DoJ ruling that says a sitting President can not be indicted. So a sitting president could be a criminal who is above the law as long as he is President. The implications of that is very scary.

Those who support him are coconspiritors and I am speaking of our elected officials. Hopefully our great nation will survive despite all of them who are in it for power and wealth.

Open Letter To Mr. Mueller

I respect what you have done in your life but I must tell you that your remarks , 9 minutes, on May 29 about the Special Counsel's report leaves me befuddled.

This is not a game we are playing or some law school exercise.  We've read the report as have many others and are left with varying opinions, e,g, AG Barr, among others. What we need from you is the conclusions you have reached in plain English, not couched in lawyer speak.

Did the Trump campaign collude - not conspire- collude with Russia in interfering with our election of 2016? If you can't say one way or the other definitively  explain why you can't. Name the person(s) who obstructed you from reaching that conclusion. If we have a corrupt President who is being supported by corrupt abettors we as a nation are in dire danger. We need you to step up and be the hero you can be just by speaking truth to power which is not happening now because the report and your quick speech is couched in so much lawyerese.

By the way, just to be clear, you are not the one who decides if you will testify to Congress, they are the ones who have that authority and if they call you you must respond to it by appearing just like any other citizen must, of course classified material must be disclosed behind closed doors. You are not more special than any of us "plain" citizens, if called you must respond affirmatively.

Remember this is not a game where some allegiance to a department or group like "the blue wall of silence" is applicable.  The fate of our nation could be in your hands. Step up and do the right thing. Speak Plainly!

                                     Respectively yours, 

Gloria Bell The Movie That Exams The Problems of Being Divorced and Looking For Romance

This flick stars Julianne Moore and John Turturro two of my favorite actors. Everything I've seen them in was good because they made even good scripts better by bringing truthfulness to their roles.
However right after I viewed this production I was sure I didn't like it at all. The movie dealt with divorced couples who were at different stages of their lives and the dialogue seemed very disjointed as though they were adlibbing. The scenes seemed a little out of joint also.

However after I came home I reflected on what I saw and came to realize that the critics that liked this picture were correct in their assessment that this was a well acted excellent production I just missed the point of the whole thing.

After spending years in what might have been a good marriage or even a tolerable one being divorced causes a great shock to the system. Suddenly one's family becomes disjointed and the divorced are alone so to speak. But the baggage they bring with them is a heavy load.  The children never really let go and no matter how old or young try to enforce their will on their parents. Daughters especially never want to let go and try to impose their will on their parents.

The two stars of course meet and hook up and have great sex and seem to full a void in each one's life. However in this case Turturro's character is the weakest and he succumbs to his daughter's will and despite his profession of love he just can't cut the chord. Moore's character is kind of flaky but seems willing to give up her family for his love but not really 100% as a scene with her family at her son's birthday party shows her excluding John's character while she and her family reminisce about when they were a family in love.

The movie speaks truth to power in many ways especially to the fact it is very difficult, perhaps impossible in some cases, to be truly happy after divorce. Maybe Frank Sinatra"s song, "Love Is Better The second Time around" isn't always, maybe almost never true.

The first time around love comes without baggage or a great deal less than the second time around which makes it a lot easier to handle life and love. If you get a chance see this flick. It'll get you thinking.

Would You Vote For This Person?

Born into a privileged family which was built on stealing from the poor to give to the rich. While growing up this person was privileged by by the family buying their way into prestigious schools through deep pockets contributions and this person barely hung on through academics, just barely.

This person avoided the draft into the armed services by having false medical conditions getting medical deferments yet despite that issued criticisms of those who served heroically. Always avoiding any circumstances whereby jeopardy might have to be faced.

Living a privileged life led to a family inheritance of many millions which was used to start a business that was run like a mafia operation yet this person always found people ready to do his dastardly deeds leaving the one ordering it all unaccountable.

Finally this person ran for President of these United States but never won because this person spouted venom and hate while making profits from campaigning. The American people couldn't vote for someone like that. Could you?

This Is For You Sarita

"The Twelfth Of Never"

You ask how much I need you, must I explain?
I need you, oh my darling, like roses need rain.
You ask how long I'll love you; I'll tell you true:
Until the twelfth of never, I'll still be loving you.

Hold me close, never let me go.
Hold me close, melt my heart like April snow.

I'll love you till the bluebells forget to bloom;
I'll love you till the clover has lost its perfume.
I'll love you till the poets run out of rhyme,
Until the twelfth of never and that's a long, long time.

Hold me close, never let me go.
Hold me close, melt my heart like April snow.

I'll love you till the bluebells forget to bloom;
I'll love you till the clover has lost its perfume.
I'll love you till the poets run out of rhyme,
Until the twelfth of never and that's a long, long time.

Until the twelfth of never and that's a long, long time.